F as in FERTILITY. I never understood how lousy the word was until I began facing my own physical limitations.
I recognize now, that fertility is a dirty word. It trumps f#*k’s obscenity. It inherently judges an involuntary ability. And for those of us who stepped on board the trying to make a baby train, fertility easily becomes an obsession.
Fertility or lack there of defines my perceptions, self-esteem and femininity. How crappy is that?
Since it has become such an obscene word to me, I’m going to try using it instead of f*ck when I’m angry and see how it feels coming out of my mouth. Next time I stub my toes I’ll shout, “FERTILITY!”
During F Word month, I’m going to be honest about my experiences with fertility and infertility.
I hope to reach other women attempting to get pregnant and start a community where we take control of our reproductive choices and find peace.
Who is with me?