Writing through pain. I had miscarriages earlier in life. I never expected to have one at 47.

The world is a scary mixed up place. People seem to have forgotten their humanity. It's breaking my heart. I haven't been able to address this much because life has handed me a pile of difficulty lately. And I'm grateful for the gift of writing my way through pain. My latest essay, I’ve Had Miscarriages...

feathers

Black feathers play a huge role in my young adult novel Life-Like. They are a reader's tip-off that the person in front of Liv is an angel. Too bad for Liv, she can't see they are angels/guides and ignores their attempts to help free her from limbo. One of my favorite moments is when Liv notices...

Still Counting

I wish I could tell you all of my neurotic behaviors regarding getting pregnant have all disappeared, but that's not the case. I am painfully aware of what day of my cycle I'm at. I am still taking the folic acid, prenatal vitamins and the last of the FertilAid (http://www.fertilaid.com/) that's in my pantry 3x a day....

IUI

Last Friday I began my first IUI cycle blood work and meds. The best part so far is the nurse who drew my blood did not leave me with a nasty bruise on my arm. The worst thing was the darting eye contact of the other fifteen women riding along with me on the conveyor...

DAY 34

BFP...Big Fat Period

The F Word

I’ve decided to make February The F Word month. F as in FERTILITY. I never understood how lousy the word was until I began facing my own physical limitations. I recognize now, that fertility is a dirty word. It trumps f#*k’s obscenity. It inherently judges an involuntary ability. And for those of us who stepped...

miscarriage

I’m fed up with celebrity miscarriages. Seriously. I am sorry for their loss but theirs is not more important than mine. Next week will mark a year since my second miscarriage. I had no idea how common they were until I was face to face with women’s reactions to my news. “I had one too,”...

I believe in soul contracts

I believe in soul contracts.  I believe that before we enter this life we ostensibly sit down with G-d and say, sign me up for this, that, and some of those challenges and I’d like to be a part of Joe, Susan and Peter’s lives again.  Oh and I see Patricia and I still have...